The great thing about not comparing myself to others is that I don’t measure my success or failures based on anyone else’s. The bad thing is that I can be hard on myself.
Lately, I have been feeling lazy and very underachieving. When given the choice to get more sleep or stay up to work on something, I choose sleep.
This weekend I had a small gathering in my little town. We went for a hike among the redwoods,
ate a ton of food,
I had plans to make fancy wine country inspired meals from scratch, but I ended up substituting half the recipes with store bought stuff. I was feeding 5 people a late breakfast and dinner and took shortcuts. We had frozen tater tots instead of hand cut fried potatoes, bbq sauce out of a jar instead of a homemade concoction, and veggie burgers that came out of a box instead of my food processor. The strawberry rhubarb pie was made with freshly picked ingredients from my garden, but the pie crust was ugly and I didn’t churn any vanilla ice cream for it. It was not the extravagant meal I planned.
I didn’t feel very accomplished until one of my guests remarked, “You do a lot.”
I paused for a moment. She was right. I don’t know too many people who would take time to organize outings for friends, all while working on creative projects, managing a garden, teaching, and clocking in hours at a day job.
That’s a lot. I took a night off.
My tarot reader said that I need to take care of myself this month and she was right. April was not a good month for me and my health suffered as well. Mercury in retrograde really didn’t help! She said that I would feel fatigued in May, so I am heeding her advice.
I’m very tempted to agree to any fun shenanigans that come my way, but I know that if I don’t schedule my activities wisely, I’ll find myself drained. For now, I putting off making any future commitments until Thursday, when Mercury is no longer in retrograde. I’ve already have a June deadline coming up and May is the busiest month of the year at work. I don’t need more on my plate!
What I have been putting on my plate are a lot of vegetables for lunch. Yesterday had brussel sprouts and cauliflower. Today I had Chinese broccoli, regular broccoli, and carrots. It’s not very exciting, but it leaves room for more interesting food for the rest of the day.
When I got home, I had a slice of rhubarb pie with Greek yogurt.
¾ cup maple sugar
3 cups chopped rhubarb stalks
1 1/2 cups chopped strawberries
2 tablespoon flour
2 tablespoon cornstarch
2 pie crusts
- Preheat oven to 425 degrees.
- Mix sugar, rhubarb, strawberries, flour and starch together.
- Put into pie crust. Cover pie with second crust and seal edges. Cut holes to let steam out.
- Bake for at 425 degrees for 15 minutes, then at 350 degrees for 30 to 40 minutes.
Over rhubarb pie, I took a cold, hard look at my resources.
Financially and emotionally, I’m doing fine. Last month’s expenses and communication issues were abnormal, so I’m not worried about that.
The one thing I am lacking in is my mental capabilities. I’m not processing things as quickly as I used and need to work on improving my intellect. As much as I don’t want to admit it, I think I need to exercise my academic brain more. That means spending less time reading fluffy news articles that provide vague, inaccurate information about the world and reading more stuff written by experts in the field.