May 4th – “Take heart! If you’ve been feeling unfocused or underwhelmed in the recent past, the stars send you something or someone compelling enough to perk up your interest.”

Mercury is finally out of retrograde! Hooray!

I hope that means I’ll get back to writing. I took a look ahead and May 10th is the best day of the year for me. The best day. Can you believe that? I wonder what magical things will happen on that day.

As much as I would like to rely on the stars to make my life great, if I’m not working on anything, there will be no magic at all! It’s like hoping to get a new job when you’re not sending out applications. Not happening!

Writing needed to be done and I didn’t do it last night. I had a long day at work and I haven’t been sleeping well or enough. Sleeping is my number 1 priority these days because I can’t be at my best if I’m not well rested. Writing is important too, but not nearly as important as sleep. It was only 9 p.m, and decided to call it an early night.

Just as I was about to sleep, I saw this article posted by a friend. It’s a list of things to give up to become successful. Here is a recap:

GIVE UP

  1. Unhealthy lifestyle
  2. Short-term mindset
  3. Playing Small
  4. Excuses
  5. Fixed mindset
  6. Believing in a magic bullet
  7. Need to control everything
  8. Saying yes to things that don’t support your goal
  9. Toxic people
  10. Need to be liked
  11. Dependency on social media/television

Once upon a time when I was trying to successful, I gave up all of these things. I can say from experience that it’s a good list.

I am not sure that I care about being successful anymore.  I’m in the middle of redefining what success means to meUntil then, there’s nothing to “go for.”  I still have, however, given up most of the items on the list.

The two things I am doing and might want to think about giving up is #11 dependency on television and #5 playing small. I am not surprised about the television. I observe and analyze popular culture. It’s what I do, so I’ve been trying to find a good medium to watch enough to know what’s going on, but not get completely sucked into it. I wish “The Soup” was still on!  What I did forget about is playing small. I’ve been hiding out from the world and wanting to be anonymous. That doesn’t help!

Well, the stars certainly work in mysterious ways. On Sunday, I agreed to attend a public event. I have to stay for a few hours and sell myself to strangers. If I am already there, there’s no reason not let myself shine. Some attention makes for a much more interesting day!

March 26th – “Feel like you’re banging your head against a wall with someone? Give up, move on.”

Yes, I do. I’ve told myself that I’ve given up on my friend by keeping my mouth shut when it comes to his love life, but I really haven’t. I may not have been saying anything to him, but that doesn’t mean that I don’t have strong opinions. I have been HOPING that he will come around and see what he’s doing to himself. Today I’m officially giving up. There’s no more hoping on my part. If I can’t help him become stronger, I have to just let him be!

On one of the days when I was relating too much to my friend’s problems, my partner wisely counseled, “Maybe there’s a lesson your friend needs to learn and he needs to go through this experience.”

I argued, “But they are BOTH suffering so much. He’s punishing himself AND her for something that has nothing to do with their relationship. It seems like his partner thinks that it’s what long term relationships should be. I hate seeing them both suffer like this. It’s awful!”

He replied, “Well, maybe they both have something to learn from this.”

“You have a point,” I paused because he was right. Then I continued, “The world can have cruel ways to lead us to where we need to go.”

It’s been months since I’ve had this conversation with my partner. I’ve always understood this intellectually, but haven’t processed it emotionally. Time to let this one go!

I doubt this will be the last time it will come up. The next time “hope” rear’s its ugly head, I’ll tell it to, “GO AWAY! I’m moving on!”