March 16th – “Finding out why some decisions are harder to make than others is your most important task today.”

I wasn’t sure where to go with this, so I made a list:

  1. Easy Decisions
    1. Limited choices
    2. Immediate results
    3. Determined by myself
  2. Hard Decisions
    1. Too many options
    2. Long term results
    3. Determined after getting feedback from others and/or research

I don’t feel like this has been outside my awareness, so I must be missing something! I don’t know what that is, so I’ve come up with a plan to work through my hard decisions:

  1. Don’t seek/ask for feedback
  2. Reward myself with something immediate
  3. No more Googling! It’s a great tool, but I totally have FOMO now! There always seems to be some other better, brighter way to do something.

Last night, I had a concrete manifestation of my problem. As I was unpacking my trunk, I realized how much chaos happens due to my indecision.

I’m away from home for 3 days and packed 7 days’ worth of clothes. I couldn’t decide what to wear and threw everything in. I thought that it would make life easier, but it’s actually a more difficult. It’s hard to find what I want and it’s a complete mess! Why did I create this extra work for myself?!

Starting today, I’m going to “pack my car” with only what I need.

December 27th – “Decisions teach us about ourselves. Remember your priorities, and this will be easy.”

Life is nothing more than a composition of the decisions we make.

Decisions come in all shapes and forms. It can be as easy or as hard as turning down a glass of wine. We decide how to react to events in our lives, what paths we take, and how we see the world. Even the act of not taking action is a decision. We are deciding to let things play out and go along for the ride. The more conscious we are of our decisions, the more self-awareness we develop. I make decisions so frequently that it’s absurd that I ever considered myself indecisive! I officially declare indecision as a myth!!!

Just today, I decided to:

Wake up early
Get dressed
Feed the cats
Go to work
Do work
Ignore the news
Write
Ignore the box of chocolates on my desk
Ignore the boxes of cookies in the lunch room
Ignore the giant bakery section at the Whole Foods
Go jogging
Look at the slice of cake inside the refrigerator
Ignore the slice of cake inside the refrigerator
Look at the almond croissant on the kitchen table
Put the almond croissant in the freezer for another day
Eat dinner instead of the cake and croissants

There were already many tough decisions today, so I think I can handle another one!

I’m mulling over a few proposals I want to submit at the end of the week. Once again, I have too many ideas and have a hard time choosing which one to work on. When I consider my priorities, these applications are near the bottom of the list.

I want to have it all and do it all, but I can’t. In order to spend more energy on the things at the top of my list, I have to be less ambitious on everything else. It’s best to take the easy route on these applications and submit something I am already familiar with. There’s no sense in investing time to create something new and exciting when I have bigger goals to tackle. It’s like making fancy chocolate milk to go with a store bought gluten sugar free cardboard cookie. I’d much rather have a freshly baked chocolate chip cookie with no milk any day! I’ll save my creative juices for the important stuff.

So what did decision making teach me about myself today? I suffer from “Shiny Object Syndrome” and need to stop distracting myself! Shiny Object Syndrome is when one immediately gets attracted to the newest thing/idea and never finishes any project because one is too busy the next thing. It’s awful! Click here for a more detailed explanation. Last year, I was exploring options, but that time is over. Two weeks ago, I set myself a clear goal of completing my new project by June and I shouldn’t let any new ideas sidetrack me. It’s time to get to work.

Before I do that, I am choosing to have that slice of cake in the refrigerator. I know it’s not the best decision, but it’s sort of okay because I’m conscious of my bad decision, right?