Oh, good! I wasn’t particularly excited about the solar eclipse today, but I’m all for new beginnings. I LOVE new beginnings.
New beginnings are awesome because:
- I get to start with a clean slate
- I haven’t messed anything up yet
- Anything can happen
I thrive not knowing what’s what the future will hold. Unknowns are filled with mystery, possibilities, and unpredictability. It’s not for everyone, but for my personality, I like change and living through life’s many surprises. I’m ready for all the beginnings the next few months will bring.
My horoscope also advised that I’ll get some assistance:
“This solar eclipse will open doors that have been previously locked, and you may even have a helping hand from a VIP. “
Last month, I requested a past life reading from my go-to tarot reading Benebell Wen. She’s been busy with some new services she offering on her website. Did you know you can get a 300 page book all about yourself? No wonder she’s so busy! Benebell got back to me today. She has not failed me in the past and I consider her a VIP in astrology.
My 26 page past life report came with a lot of helpful material about things that I need to work on. Some of the karma has already been handled and others have not. One of the things I asked was the big question that many (if not all) writers/artists ask themselves:
- Who is my audience?
- How do I want to get recognized?
Apparently, I want to go for gold in this lifetime. One of the “past me’s” was an effeminate intellectual man with dark hair (it’s crazy the type of detail she gives me!) who didn’t get recognition for his work. In order to fill this void, I need to get approval at the highest level. That means impressing the smartest people in my profession AND getting an award for it. That’s a really tall order!
It’s been a good news, bad news kind of day. The good news is that I got some answers to questions I’ve been thinking about. The bad news is that playtime is over. I can’t go on pretending like it’s okay for me to be mediocre and coast through the remaining years of my life. Why me?!
I may not have control of anything, but I do have the power to frame situations in a way that helps me get through life in one piece.
A few weeks ago, I had a conversation with a friend about tarot readings. She asked if I believed in tarot readings because I had been so receptive to my experience a few months ago. I wasn’t sure how to answer that question since I hadn’t framed tarot and astrology in that way.
Tarot and astrology readings are less about what the cards and signs say, and more of how each person interprets it and reacts to it. For me, astrology is a source of information, an insight into parts of my life that I had not considered. It takes me outside my own head and helps me see new ideas and opportunities. At the end of the day, it’s still up to me to make decisions for myself and determine what to do. Right now, I am also using astrology as a tool to get me motivated and excited about the day.
Astrology is not for everyone because it can reveal parts of our lives that are not so pleasant to confront. We have to be ready to accept all the ugly truths, as well as the beautiful flaws. When we do, we have the opportunity to have a deeper understanding of ourselves and shape our worlds with more meaning.
In short, I would say that I do believe in tarot, astrology, horoscopes, and all the other woo-woo stuff. I would also say that I “believe” in affirmations, life coaching, therapy, monetary rewards, fame, recognition, and anything else that could help motivate me. Do I really think that I will, “succeed in auditions, exams, first dates, and all other situations that put you to the test” today? Not really, but if I want be productive today, there’s no harm in telling myself that I’ll have excellent results.
Mondays are hard after a long holiday weekend. What makes today even harder for me is that I had a tarot reading last night.
This is my first tarot reading and I didn’t really know how to prepare for it.
I know that it can be energy draining for tarot readers, but I didn’t expect that my energy would be depleted!
It’s almost 24 hours later and I’m still trying to recover. This is not like any kind of exhaustion I’ve experienced before. I’ve had my fair share of toxic relationships and this tiredness doesn’t even compare! My best guess as to why I’m so drained is because my reading was very charged. I have a LOT to accomplish in this lifetime and have purposely been avoiding my responsibilities for some time now. That’s what I get for bottling everything up and creating road blocks for myself!
I have a lot of work ahead of me, but today, I’m going to take it easy.
Some interesting articles on energy:
How to Deal with the Side Effects of Psychic Energy
The Unindemnified Cost of Tarot Reading
If you’re interested in getting a tarot reading, I highly recommend Benebell Wen. I didn’t particularly believe in tarot before, but now I’m convinced! There were too many sure signs that I couldn’t ignore!