November 28th – “Go easy on yourself.”

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Mondays are hard after a long holiday weekend. What makes today even harder for me is that I had a tarot reading last night.

This is my first tarot reading and I didn’t really know how to prepare for it.

I know that it can be energy draining for tarot readers, but I didn’t expect that my energy would be depleted!

It’s almost 24 hours later and I’m still trying to recover. This is not like any kind of exhaustion I’ve experienced before. I’ve had my fair share of toxic relationships and this tiredness doesn’t even compare! My best guess as to why I’m so drained is because my reading was very charged. I have a LOT to accomplish in this lifetime and have purposely been avoiding my responsibilities for some time now. That’s what I get for bottling everything up and creating road blocks for myself!

I have a lot of work ahead of me, but today, I’m going to take it easy.

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Some interesting articles on energy:

How to Deal with the Side Effects of Psychic Energy

The Unindemnified Cost of Tarot Reading

If you’re interested in getting a tarot reading, I highly recommend Benebell Wen. I didn’t particularly believe in tarot before, but now I’m convinced!  There were too many sure signs that I couldn’t ignore!

November 26th – “You’re not where you want to be, but that’s no career crises. Be patient and wait.”

Worrying does nothing.

It’s an action based on inaction, stemming from fear and anxiety.

Unlike anger, resentment, sadness, jealously, or any other negative feeling, there is no catharsis or release of energy in worrying.

Worrying consumes a lot of energy, but it stores all of this energy and builds up until there’s no room to breathe. It does so because worry exists in a liminal state, the place of in between. When we worry, we are paralyzed, indecisive, and unable to take responsibility of whatever consequence lies ahead. So we wait and worry about what might or might not happen next.

That sounds like a waste of time, doesn’t it? Well, it is! So I’m not going to worry that I’m not where I want to be. Not today anyway. Being patient and waiting is so much easier than worrying!

I have an impatient temperament, so when I’m waiting, I try to keep myself occupied. What better way than to start on a new book!

Jack Kerouac’s On the Road has been on my reading list for over a couple of decades. I don’t know why I never got to it, so I’m getting to it now.

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Worry is not something the characters experience very often in this Beat generation classic. In fact, their complete lack of anxiety and fear of the future is what makes this story interesting. Kerouac travels across the U.S. several times, and does so on meager funds and with vague plans. He and his friends may drink a lot, get into trouble, and freeload off others, but there is something I envy about them. Freedom.

They have freedom to explore the road, people, and LIFE with few strings attached. I’m aware that both Kerouac and Cassady (the other main character in the story) died in their forties in real life, but that doesn’t deter me. Heck, many great artists died young!

Would I rather live a short life rich with stories and adventures, or a long boring one without passion? I think I know my answer!

November 23rd – “This will be a propitious time to reorganize your finances so as to prevent budgetary acrobatics, which are sure to exhaust you.”

Money and budgets are not something I like to talk about. I don’t have a problem with money, but it seems like a contentious topic of conversation for many people.

Despite my initial reluctance, money was a repeated topic on both my zodiac and horoscope predictions for the last two days, so I thought, “Why not!” I’m sure those horoscope writers are trying to help all those over spenders during black Friday weekend!

Yesterday, I purchased a new car, so I needed to reorganize my finances a bit. That didn’t mean that I opened up a spreadsheet and tracked all my spending. How boring and tedious! No, I’ve never budgeted in a traditional sense and I do not need to now. All I did was re-prioritize some of my daily expenses in my head.

I’m guessing you might be skeptical about my approach, so here’s support from today’s horoscope:

Just how you stay afloat is one of your little secrets. It’s almost a secret from you, too, because you’re not quite sure how you manage it…But you’re just doing what comes naturally. Like a cook who doesn’t follow a recipe, you can’t really help your friends out by sharing any tips.

This reading is really spot on! I’ve been working part-time for a while, but it all seems to get managed. I track nothing, get the bills paid, splurge on a few luxuries, and even have money put away for rainy days.

My predication says that I don’t have any useful tips, but I’m up for a challenge! Here is what I do to be financially sound:

  1. BUY WHAT I NEED – if I can live without it for a week, I probably don’t need it
  2. SPLURGE ON ONE THING, NOT EVERYTHING
  3. DON’T FOLLOW TRENDS – I still don’t have a smart phone…
  4. DON’T CARE ABOUT WHAT OTHER PEOPLE THINK – and I don’t care what you think about it!
  5. TREAT MONEY AS A RELATIONSHIP

Of the items listed above, the last has been the most useful for me.

I grew up poor, very poor. Many people are surprised because I had a good education and do not look the part.  I’m not sure what poor is supposed to look like, but I think some people are thrown off because I like to wear dresses. When I was young I didn’t like money, not only because I didn’t have any, but because of how others behaved in relation to it. Money seemed to drive peoples’ existence and that didn’t sit well with me.

Throughout the years, I have met and forged relationships with people from different walks of life. I learned that it doesn’t matter what your background is. Whether you love or hate money, it’s an obsession. We obsess about making money, get preoccupied with spending money, or take money for granted. It’s hard not to do.

To a certain extent, money can buy happiness, security, freedom, prestige, and even identity. However, just like any relationship, if you solely rely on money to provide these things for you, it’s likely that you’ll find yourself dissatisfied at some point.

Let’s put it another way.

If I’m in a relationship because I think that my partner can give my life meaning, happiness and anything else I’m lacking, what’s going to happen when he’s not there? I’d probably find myself without meaning, unhappy, and still lacking.

It’s crazy to give anyone or anything that much power over my life.

I have no illusions that I have control over my life, but I would like to try to be responsible for my own happiness.

Once I began seeing money as a form of relationship, it didn’t matter how much or little I had of it. I know that I’ll be okay no matter what happens.

November 22nd – “Be aware that your research concerning your past or future lives will not help you close your monthly finances gracefully.”

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Breaking news: I received my birth reading today!

Yes, I’m taking this astrology thing to a whole new level!

My 60+ page reports (there were 2 of them) gave me an overview of what the stars have in store for me based on the date, time, and place of my birth. I read both reports in one sitting, and I have to say, I think it’s pretty accurate!

How did my prediction know that I would be getting research concerning my past and future lives today?  This is the first reading I’ve EVER had, so it has to be more than just a coincidence. I’m calling it a SURE SIGN!

It’s too bad that I can’t rely on my latest discoveries, which say that I can have/did have good fortune, to pay the bills this month. Oh well! I guess I can’t quit my day job just yet.

I know very well that while the past and future can provide valuable insights into my world, it’s not the here and now. I’m trying to live in the present, so I’m not going to dwell too much on the past or future. What’s done is done, and what’s not yet done, may never be done.

My past can give me knowledge, my future can give me hope, but only I can make today happen!

 

November 21st – “Don’t! This is only a test.”

Don’t what?

Don’t freak out? Don’t panic? Don’t worry? Don’t be lazy? Don’t talk to strangers? Don’t eat that donut? Don’t think? Don’t do anything?!

This is hands down the vaguest Zodiac predication that I’ve ever gotten!

I don’t like tests, but I’d much rather take a multiple choice exam right now. Life tests are so much harder, especially when you don’t know what the test is about! On the bright side, maybe this test isn’t for me.

A horoscope prediction advised me to,

“Let people live the life they choose to live — even if you think it’s not making them happy.”

Hmm…I’m meeting a few friends tonight, so maybe the stars want me keep my mouth shut. If my friends are being tested, it’s their tests, not mine.

I’ve been doing pretty well at not sharing my opinion. Okay, I admit it. I’ve only been able to do it because I’ve been cheating. I am less bossy and judgmental ONLY because I’ve limited my interaction with others. If I don’t see or talk to anyone, how can I tell them what I think?!

I really don’t want to break my non-judgy streak, so I’m going to use my magic tool.

Wine!

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A little alcohol can help people look younger, sound smarter, laugh louder, and even make the world feel a little better. The effect may only be temporary, but a short term fix is all I need!

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November 20th – “It’s a good day to accomplish your goals if you don’t let yourself let go of them first.”

It’s easy to give up on goals.  There’s a million excuses one can make, but sometimes certain goals are not worth having.

To be honest, I don’t really care about (career) goals at the moment. As a former over achiever, I’m happy to do less and accomplish less. There’s nothing wrong with slowing down and smelling the flowers for a change.

I was ready to let go of today’s goal of submitting a job application that I felt lukewarm about. However, my horoscope advised me not to and I already ignored my fitness scope for the day. I didn’t think it would be wise to snub ALL my predictions for the day. I’ve already learned the hard way!

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With that out of the way, I worked on my second predication of the day.

Power comes from being open to new ideas. When confronted, don’t resist. Consider.”

It was too late to go out in the world today, so I started on Sleight of Hand by Peter S. Beagle. It’s a collection of short stories and it didn’t disappoint.

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In “The Rock In the Park,” two kids help a family of centaurs (NOT pictured above!) who are lost in modern day Bronx. Using a magical brush created from hairs from the centaurs’ tails, a boy draws a map which will lead the centaurs to Mexico where their fellow centaurs have already migrated to for the winter.

The story made me wonder about all the things that I miss when I’m “too busy” and not paying attention. For all I know, there could be centaurs, unicorns, and other magical creatures hanging around my jogging trail at night. I’m not outside often enough to know what really goes on out there. Heck, they might be there right now, and maybe I just can’t see any of them!

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November 19th – “You’ve met your match, but is that such a bad thing? Winning all the time is boring.”

Rainy days are the best time for baking. I fantasized about making an array of cookies, cakes, and breads this weekend, but I didn’t get very far.

I made chocolate chip cookies this afternoon.

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Thirty minutes later, all of these goodies showed up at my door.

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A few friends and I have birthdays this coming week which always coincide with the U.S. Thanksgiving holiday. While I expected more desserts than usual, I didn’t think it would start until Monday.

There were two oversized creamed horns,

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one tiramisu slice,

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one red velvet slice,

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one taro brulee slice,

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one strawberry roll,

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one strawberry tiramisu slice (I didn’t know there was such a thing until now!),

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and two mystery flavor mochis.

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I love desserts, and on a few occasions, have even eaten entire cakes by myself. These cakes, mochis, and horns are going to sit in my frig tonight untouched. I don’t know how I’m going to eat all of this. Frankly, I’m intimidated.

I’ve met my match.

Dessert baking is officially banned at my house until next month. The stars sure find creative ways to redirect my path.

I guess it’s time to get started on my next Alice Hoffman novel.

 

 

November 17th – “Just hang out and enjoy the passing scenery.”

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That sounds like wonderful prediction, doesn’t it?  Well it was, but only for the first 15 minutes of my day! Just when you think you have it easy, it can get hard real fast.

Inadvertently, I woke up at 4:30 this morning. That’s my usual time when I have to commute to the city. Today, I didn’t have to drive. I jumped out of bed because I thought it was 6:30 a.m.

After some warm ups, I bolted outside into the darkness.  As I’ve mentioned before, I like to work out first thing in the morning before my mind has a chance to wake up and rebel. It was a cold 45 degrees, but I tried not think about it and forged on. I thought to myself, “I’m only going for a short run. It won’t be so bad.”

Strangely, there weren’t any other runners around the lake today. Normally, there are dozens of early risers getting a jog in before work. After half an hour, the sun still wasn’t rising at all. That’s when I realized that something was wrong. I was up way too early.

At this point, there was no way that I’d be able to rewind and go back to sleep. Even though I was tired and struggling, my body was awake enough from the chilly air that it didn’t make sense to quit.

I had read my zodiac predication the night before and almost laughed out loud. With all the extra time I had now, I decided to turn my short run into a long one. My zodiac gave me a clear sign to hang out and enjoy the passing scenery, so I did.

It’s a rare treat to be at the lake at night, especially when there aren’t other pedestrians around. Despite the piercing cold, I appreciated the stillness. The ducks weren’t even in the water and lined up at the edge, patiently waiting for the sun to come out so they could warm their feathers.

The chilly air and quietness made me focus on nothing but the moment, something which I haven’t been able to do for a very long time. I wasn’t distracted by Olympic-fast joggers wearing face masks for “resistance training” or by overhearing private conversations from urban strollers. There were no car horns, seagull cries, or traffic signals beeping. I couldn’t see very well with the dim lights, but it didn’t matter. It was just me, the lake, and no one else.

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Some day pictures of the lake:

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THANK YOU READERS!!!

Today I planned on making mug cakes to thank YOU. If you’re reading this, then, yes, I’m talking to YOU!

I had scheduled a microwave baking night with a friend, but she was swamped with work. Coincidentally, my zodiac did advise me to, “change some deadlines or renegotiate terms.” I should have taken that as a SURE SIGN that mug cakes weren’t going to happen!

Instead, I wrote a poem for you.

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Thank You Readers

Big thanks I give to all who read my work

Two months it’s been since I began this blog

On cats, on cakes, and sometimes my artwork

I share it all with you, even my jogs

Typos I’ve made on almost all the posts

But you don’t seem to mind that much at all

I’m glad because I like being your host

Of horoscope stories from big to small

Who knows what future tomorrow will hold

For now I will enjoy your company

And let the words in their slow calm unfold

Into a sonnet to accompany

The thanks I want to show to all of you

I appreciate you, and you, and you!

 

November 15th – “Someone’s going to get pretty bossy today — try to make sure that it’s not you.”

Bossy people are annoying. What’s more annoying is when I’m the bossy person!

Here are some signs of bossy behavior:

  1. Pushing to be helpful.
  2. Insisting they have the best answer.
  3. Pressing you to consider all options.
  4. Interrupting and being outspoken.
  5. Needing to prove they are smarter than you.
  6. Acting driven to be right.

I found this list insightful because it provides a nuanced definition of bossiness that I hadn’t considered before.

I don’t think I was guilty of it today, but when I am bossy, I mostly exhibit bossy sign #3 or #4. I’m not going to beat myself up over this because I don’t know anyone who has not been bossy before. Okay, I do know a few acquaintances who have not shown me their signs of bossiness. However, I have a feeling that during the 99.99999% of the time that they spend outside my presence, they’ve had at least one opportunity to be bossy.

I used to think that my cats boss me around, but it’s entirely inaccurate according to the list above. Telling someone to do something doesn’t necessary mean that he/she is being bossy.  Sometimes people (or in this case, cats) simply want tasks done.

When my cat meows at me by the litter box, there is no psychological motive behind their demand. They aren’t trying to be “right” about something or trying to “prove that they are smarter than me” even if I might think so! Cats simply want the litter box cleaned because it’s dirty!

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I’ve been reading What Philosophy Can Tell You About Your Cat again. There’s an article that talks about rationality. It’s interesting that humans try to measure how rational one person is to the next. There’s no point to that. Compared to a cat, I think that all humans are irrational!

At the end of the day, I don’t care who’s right or smarter than me. I just want a clean litter box!